frankly, i've not been able to live a very holy life this past few weeks. i've indulged in so much sin, mostly lust. sometimes i really feel like a really big hypocrite. i come to God for forgiveness every time but a few days later or so i start to sin once again. i know in my mind God loves me and all but i just feel so lost and blinded at times and i simply go on to sin. through all my imperfections, God still loves me and always will no matter what i did or do. He never said it was gonna be easy, but He also said he'd be with us throughout. we cannot rely on our own strength because we are weak, we need God. and though sometimes He may punish us for the wrong things we do, but he does so not out of vengeance or that He wants us to be hurt, but so we can learn from these mistakes. that we'd be shaped more like Christ. and though i may still fall and make wrong choices many more times, God will never stop loving me and i believe that with all my heart. though i will be punished, i will not try to avoid or plead my way out but i will accept it for it is so i'd learn and be more like Christ. i'll never stop believing that God plans for me to prosper, learn, be blessed, succeed and most of all to shape me like Christ so i can be that one step closer to Him.